I feel like these last t30 days have been a total disaster,
and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I was sick the whole month of February,
Lena was getting all of her 2 year molars in at once, and to really top it off,
we thought we had to put Lexi (one of our amazing dogs) down yesterday. It has
been a roller-caster of emotions and so many times I just wanted this nightmare
to just stop. A lot of other things just kept pilling up and adding to the
stress, but those were the sprinkles on the Sunday. So many times I just wanted to throw in the
Towel and say “eff it” and wanted to just run away. I know everyone gets those moments,
especially when you are sleep deprived and are not happy the way your life is going.
It started a few days before my birthday, when Lexi just
started looking down and stopped eating. At first it was just the dry food and
cookies, but then it became the wet food and eventually chicken breast. It has
been like this the last 3 weeks. My dog lost 11 pounds in 5 days one week. We
had been taking her to the vet twice a week to figure out what was wrong, and
she got diagnosed with a Thyroid issue, low grade Valley Fever and some bacterial
thing. Well the eating did not come back. Yesterday I took her to the vet because
she didn’t even want to walk and was so weak, I was fully thinking we would
have to put her down. The doctor toyed with the Idea as well, but first wanted
to do an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed what could either be a bleeding
ulcer or stomach cancer. Right now we are hoping for the Ulcer and are treating
her for it. The thing that gets me is that if she has stomach cancer it would
be the EXACT same my dad had, and died from. I just want my little big Lexi to
get better and be happy again, she is after all our “muffin”.
With all the sickness, stress, sleepless nights (thanks Lena
;)) I have found ZERO motivation to workout or lose weight. Actually I gained
like 2 pounds, and I know it is all stress and water related. This week I will
get back on the bandwagon and work out, especially since I just signed Rob and
myself up for Pat’s Run!
The next 30 days, I promise to make them better and not get
so down and really work on the life we deserve and not create.
